Posted by w_llflower at 02:31 AM on March 18, 2005.
So it's the summer, now. I can finally do everything I've been itching to do. Fix my room, cut my hair, go shopping, read books, watch really good movies, have TV show marathons, dance! 
And basically, just not worry. I can drink and be merry, for there are no papers due on Monday. I can't wait to not have anything to do, to complain about, and just have a really boring life haha. To do everything that makes it seem like I'm having the time of my life. And to actually have the time of my life.
I just got back from one of the best nights of my life. Nothing big, just the average night out. I guess if there's one thing I've learned to appreciate so much more this year, it's my friends. I've always loved them, but I don't know. Being with them now is so much sweeter, somehow.
And after the drinks are poured, the cigs are killed, the report cards handed to mom (and the grounding that will inevitably proceed), it will just be me, in my soon-to-be mango yellow hacienda looking room with my music, and my pillows, sleeping it away. I guess if there's one thing that I learned about myself this year, it's that even Supergirl needs to rest. I've been juggling everything I can (since high school), and somehow, the juggling didn't work this sem, even if I worked my ass off to try to keep balance. I still fell hard.
And finally, the epitome of all learning in my college life so far is that I really am just a silly, naive, little college student in a small university in an overpopulated little country in a tiny portion of the world. This year was probably my most humbling experience to date. haha And even if I'm still not humble hahaha, at least I know now that I can't just be good at something. I've got to be great.
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down,
That I would be great if I was no longer queen,
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing,
That I would be good whether with or without you.
Currently listening to: That I Would Be Good by Alanis Morissette